Enslaved by an Absence

I have always taken horoscopes with a grain of salt.  While I do believe we are influenced by the cosmos, most horoscopes seem contrived and not worth reading.  However, I have found an astrologer worth subscribing to named Rob Brezsny, his work can be found at http://FreeWillAstrology.com   


This week's newsletter from Rob Brezsny speaks to my current situation better than I can explain.  It goes something like this: "'In the absence of clearly-defined goals,' said Cancerian writer Robert Heinlein, 'we become strangely loyal to 
performing daily trivia until ultimately we become enslaved by it.'"  Then Rob Brezsny goes on to encourage us fellow Cancerians to address this problem because we are more powerful than we know and are very capable of identifying and defining worthy goals.  Then he finishes with "If you take advantage of this opportunity, you will find a better use for the energy that's currently locked up in your enslavement 
to daily trivia."


Wow!  Through some recent introspection, I have found myself partially enslaved in my 9 - 5 by running a program that I am not an expert on, nor do I want to be an expert in this particular realm.  I have contemplated who I would talk to about this and what I would say, but I haven't taken that next step due to the "what ifs".  


Running this particular program was never a goal of mine, it simply fell in my lap because the person who previously ran it was leaving.  I was asked to take it over, I agreed on a temporary basis and now 10 months later, it's my program.  


By taking on this program, I compromised my goal of running an urban farm/community garden program.  Yes, I have become strangely loyal to performing the daily trivia of this program because I value my reputation.  But I fear in the end, my lack of knowledge in this program's realm is actually working against me and my good name.  I can no longer attend meetings with professionals in this realm and fain indifference.


Time to take the bull by the proverbial horns and talk to the powers that be and become free of this enslaving program and follow my clearly defined goal.